Second round today..

Dunnoe eh... have the same not so good or shuang feeling as the Admissions Interview... Guess I'm trying a bit too hard already. Maybe I should just develop the 'If can get all the better attitude' again. That was how I kinda pulled through my First interview of the LKCSP anyway. Man. I dunnoe... do i really want the scholarship? Or am i just hoping to consider later on? Or am i just plain greedy and hoping to see if i can go all the way?

I dunnoe.. i feel lost actually. and actually am a very pessimistic person by nature. I feel that i can always talk so easily about other's problems, and trying to solve the problems for them. but like... when it comes to my own, i dun seem to have a solution.

Also, i kinda know that I am exaggerated, like my actions, reactions and words, and i panic EASILY, but... that's my nature, and it is not going to change immediately. I know that sometimes the things may not be suitable for the current situation. but its done rite? so no point crying over spilt milk. I worry easily, think too much, but if you have been my friends, you should know im like that. And its just not easy kicking this habit ok. Coz the thoughts just go through the head. It just irritates me by playng over and over. So i have to say it out... as an outlet! else i will really die of frustration. Just like this blog post! Its like its all in my head now. Making me really wanna kill myself. Gosh.

I need to get over it and suck it up!

i hate life.

i love nice things though.

i like meeting new people.

i love my family and friends.

i need to chill....

syLvie

sidenote. maybe im biased, but i feel that a discrimination still exists in U. Maybe im overly sensitive, but ya noe... people always say JC this and JC that. Are polys so insignificant? The first Qn this girl asked me when she met me and my friend (from poly too) was... so, which JC are you from? We were like.. having the 'get used to it' kinda feeling.

My interview group, i was the only one from Poly, save for another guy who transferred from NUS to SMU. three from RJ, one frm AJ. man.. its swamping with RJs..

eeeeee.

OH OH!! also, one RJ girl was saying her ntu accountancy is PENDING.... and when i heard it, i was so honoured and proud that Wei Li is already accepted, whereas hers is pending.. HAH. Polys OK!

HAH. bleagh~ T_-

Wah wah. my dad had to just irritated me by coming me and asking me abt the damn interview again. And when i told him that there was a possibility that i might get the scholarship but no admission to the school, he said stupid.. and i said ya la! then he walked out saying.. stupid school stupid people want. WTH!!! HE IS THE ONE who keeps egging me to go to SMU can! sickening lei. Parents are contradictory things. Irritating.

PUI.

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